During my last weekend, I did not spend my free time the most productively. I say this because as my nervous system recovers from overtraining, an improper dosage of over the counter supplements, and strain from my professional job, I sought rest in consuming myself in some really bizarre hobbies I used to actively engage in a decade ago.

That is, the YouTube Poop Music Video.

I will not get into the history of what a YTPMV is, as that is not the point of my reflection, but a precursor to the outstanding time I spent revolving a internet legend that died, and left a legacy that I do not truly believe is worth the effort in maintaining.

That legend is Billy Herrington–a bisexual adult film actor who is the star in many mashups from content creators all over the world who took joy in the bizarre acting in his adult films.

Billy Herrington passed away in a car accident in 2018, and people who deeply admire his contribution to the bizarre genre have made videos and strange comments of wrestling in heaven with God. Since 2013, video editors from around the world have spent countless hours pouring into a video mashup nearly every year to celebrate the absurd nature of Billy’s contribution to the internet, which appears to have ceased in 2021.

As I combed through the comments and feeds that revolved around Billy, I could not but help feel the sorrow and short lived nature of sexual sin, and how it corrupts everything.

Since sin enter the world through Adam and Eve’s disobedience, the Earth has been cursed and put in a state of misery yearning for the return of Christ to set matteres right and just. But there was a point at which I turned my eyes to my own sin brevity in existence knowing that I have a limtied time on Earth as well . . .

I cannot relate to Billy giving in to his sexual sin to make a name and earning for himself, so instead I turned to another man that I previously identified with that should be known: Hunter Biden.

I do not plan to go into details of what is in Hunter’s laptop, nor the images that I found publically posted on Twitter of his activities, so I will just draw from the Department of Justice’s indictment on him, turning to page 13 of where his finances went to.

To be honest, I was envious of this man’s lifestyle, desiring to be like King Solomon whom turned his heart to “various women” and “adult entertainment”. But the Lord did not leave me in this hold of envy and jealousy, as He allowed me into His presence and told me about how short our life span is, as we have a countdown before appearing before Christ in judgment.

Initially I resisted, and tried to explain my pitiful nature before the Lord, but as I exhausted myself before the Lord of Hosts, He allowed me to understand the concept of influence and social capital, a concept I do not have the firmest grasp of.

He pointed me to my influence and interactions with others in the local church, and called upon my senses to understand the disspaointment had I walked away from Christ and became engulfed in my fleshly desires. Not only am I seperated from Christ and the Lord of Hosts, but I have to face the conseqwuences of my actions in the current life now. Genuinely I do not have high hopes for our justice or legal system, as it appears they to pick and choose whom to prosecute based on various interests and man power; but I have a higher standard than that of this broken and corrupt system. But the Lord is just and does not allow sin to go unpunished, for it is written:

Romans 6:23

[23] For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. (ESV)

With that principle settled and understood, I can begin my correction of thought by the entering of Jesus Christ, and the promise of who He is and His second coming.

Each time I feel the sting of death and change, and old age creeping on my flesh and bones, the Holy Spirit comforts me in the life and person of Jesus Christ, whom overcame the grave and is sitting at the right hand of God, where every knee shall bow, and every tongue shall confess, that He is Lord. The Spirit continues to edify my heartbrokeness and my disappointment with this life by joining me whenever I turn to the Word of God, and proccess this mighty promise:

Isaiah 42:1–4

The LORD’s Chosen Servant

[1] Behold my servant, whom I uphold, my chosen, in whom my soul delights; I have put my Spirit upon him; he will bring forth justice to the nations. [2] He will not cry aloud or lift up his voice, or make it heard in the street; [3] a bruised reed he will not break, and a faintly burning wick he will not quench; he will faithfully bring forth justice. [4] He will not grow faint or be discouraged till he has established justice in the earth; and the coastlands wait for his law. (ESV)

It is in this man–Jesus Christ–that my hope is turned from cowardice to a courage to move forward, expecting the warm embrace of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has the key sof death and Hades, and all authority and on Earth have been given to Him.